Disorder Heaven

I need the free time to get away from you

Wed, 30 Dec 2009 03:53:23 GMT

Unlike the sun that shines
Through a crimson sky
I have built these walls
so you can't get by

I just really like being alone. I would be so extremely happy if I could just stay inside and have no one try to contact me. Just alone to sing as loud as I want and be badass. Wear something ridiculous even though it's cold outside and just sit around and chill. Make my own dinner, which will be awesome and delicious. Not have to share the TV with my mom. Just alone time. I want that.

I still love my friends though. I just love my alone time too.

I started drawing in a little sketchbook, but it's near impossible to scan anything I draw in it. I'm sad because I like the sketches and have no intentions of ripping them out. Maybe oneday I'll find some loving boyfriend and draw in it everyday and then give it to them when it's full as some terribly romantic gift.

Once 2010 hits I'm starting my work to be ahead for the next school term. I'm already kind of trying to be "more good" than usual I guess. I don't want to make a resolution, because everyone always breaks those. New Years party, huh? I guess it sounds cool. Who would I want to spend New Years with? No one's face in particular pops up, which is sad.

I choose not to think about that kind of thing though. Everything is depressing when you think too much.

Guess I should draw something for my mom's birthday now.

In case I forget...HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYONE! I will try to be more eloquent in the new year.

I'm just floating here for you

Sat, 26 Dec 2009 13:19:00 GMT

If you ever need to feel it
Just sing the lemontune
It could be the sweetest flavor
If you open up your head
If you need someone to take you
Just call me out again
And I know life's not that easy
But it doesn't have to be hard
When all that's left is the moment
We'll make the moment ours
If it becomes time to be going
Just take the feeling home
And then we'll come back again tomorrow

I can't remember if it's thursday or December

Tue, 22 Dec 2009 05:09:46 GMT

Tomorrow we'll wake up in time
To stop this double suicide
Through kisses laced with cyanide
And one last look through blood shot eyes

A place that sees not the light of day

Mon, 21 Dec 2009 01:04:51 GMT

Your eyelids grow heavy
And this is my cue
If three words could heal you
I'D ONLY SPEAK TWO

Can I meet you alone?

Sat, 19 Dec 2009 04:20:09 GMT

Another night and I'll see you
Another night and I'll be you
Some other way to continue
To hide my face

I seem to find life in my own dimension

Wed, 16 Dec 2009 23:52:45 GMT

It's even better than
The real thing, baby
It's even better
Than it ought to be

Nights filled with longer hours

Mon, 14 Dec 2009 21:00:06 GMT

Black ice and hidden lust
White sheets of snow concealing
Gloves on hands
Mmmm I'm hungry.

My scanner isn't working, so I had to take a photo of all my drawings. -___- STUPID SCANNER. I WANT A NEW ONE.

Shiro, my Mac and Twomew my Mac laptop.

Xmas pic for my Nana of Josephine from Nyan koi! eating christmas cookies. n_n He's so cute, lol, with his bow and bell...and his kansai accent!!!!!! KANSAI ACCENT! BEST CAT EVER!!!! And his owner is from the yakuza ^_^ Hope she likes it.

A cat girl with glasses. Kind of like a pun, because a girl with glasses is called a meganeko (megane meaning glasses, ko being the ending for a girl). And then she's a cat (neko) so she's a glasses cat! I AM SO CLEVER!!! I MADE MY OWN JAPANESE PUN!!! HAHAHAHA!!! <_<

A pink punk kangaroo! =O

Back to non-stop video games and stimulation via tv screens and computer screens.

This is the cross that I carry

Sun, 29 Nov 2009 14:31:59 GMT

It's really not that difficult
It's easier to be alone

Please tell mom this is not her fault

Sat, 28 Nov 2009 18:45:22 GMT

I couldn't wait
Until I got home
To pass the time
In my room alone

I won't suffer, be broken

Fri, 27 Nov 2009 19:07:49 GMT

Run away
Run away
DO IT DO IT CHU~
This what Jenn and I did to Joe when he was in class LOL and yet I drew this before it actually happened. I'M PSYCHIC.

OOPS. Realized I had a stash of sketches from last week that I had kept hidden to be viewable ONLY TO ME. So now I'm fixing that, but now you have TWICE teh sketches to pretend you're looking at. (I know no one looks at them, don't lie to me!). This week I really didn't draw a lot though. Basically, a bunch of bad things happened to me at once and then I decided not to sulk and to fix everything. And so the cerberus evolves yet again...

Anyways. Yeah. I'm better. I kicked depression in the face.

sketch of a random girl, kirby, Raichu kitty and...zebra.

I was so bored I made my own band...LOL. They're called Blind Tiger and they all have animal-themed hair dye jobs! Except for mint who is allergic to fur so he doesn't like most animals XD NOW TO BORE YOU WITH CHARACTER DESCRIPTIONS. (YEAH I WAS REALLY BORED)

Clive "Mint" Dawson

Character Build: slightly short, lean build, boyish features
Favourite Music: shameful pop songs (britney spears, rihanna, taylor swift)
Interests: drums, tv, gossip
School: good student
Personality: curious, innocent, fun-loving, cheerful, appreciative
Misc: doesn't like animals

Clive is the drummer for the band who doesn't have a name yet. He was the last member to join, and he broke the trend of having an animal nickname because he hates animals (he's allergic to fur). Clive is teased for his girly interests, but he's comfortable enough to continue watching gossip girl every week. Clive is a good student, and watches the world with a kind of child-like wonder. However, he's not immature by any means.

Another picture of Mint for good measure. MINTY HAIR!

Reese "Tiger" Smith

Character Build: slightly muscular, tall, sharp cunning eyes, long chin
Favourite Music: punk
Interests: music, making up work-out routines
School: average student
Personality: clumsy, messy, cheerful, determined, dramatic
Random: is gay :D

Tiger always overexaggerates. ALWAYS. However, his passionate decision to start a band really got this friends going. Tiger improved his singing voice from a horrible screech into a beautifully rich voice by sheer willpower and practice - proving the pwoer of "practice makes perfect". Tiger is known for working last-minute miracles and everyone comes to him when in a pinch. Tiger's boyfriend is a high level athlete so he likes creating work out schedules for him and even training alongside him. No one is more loyal than Tiger.

Drake "Zebra" Bell

Character Build: very thin, half-lidded eyes
Favourite Music: rock, metal, emo, and some pop
Interests: dying hair, guitar, screwing with people's heads
School: honour roll student
Personality: carefree, deceptive, blunt, devious,
Misc: his hair is originally wavy (like Leo's), but he had it permanently straightened

Drake and his brother started the band with Tiger. Drake is the more easy going brother. Many assume he's some emo kid, but he's actually the kind of guy who just doesn't get enough sleep so he looks depressed. Drake is extremely sarcastic, and very good at tricking people and pulling pranks. If you ever want the truth, go to Drake. Despite how often he causes trouble for the band, he's actually very serious when it comes to practicing and keeps the band in line. He works as a camp counsellor in the summer and is amazing with little kids.

Leo "Parrot" Bell

Character Build: baby face, short, fairly big eyes
Favourite Music: rock
Interests: n/a
School: slightly below average student
Personality: quiet, gullible, obedient, easily influenced, blank
Misc: Parrot's dye job is changes every 2-4 weeks by Zebra, who makes a new colour combo each time

Drake's brother. Parrot actually has no real passion for anything, he just does what he's told or copies his brother...like how a parrot mimics speech. Despite this crappy metaphor, Drake thought it was cleever so he dyed Parrot's hair crazy colours to try to make his little brother look more lively. Everyone is hoping that handing him a bass guitar will stir up some sort of emotion other than apathy in him.

OK NOW FOR THE SKETCHES FROM THIS WEEK. Only 4...<_< WHICH IS GOOD I GUESS means I'm paying attention

Araragi and Senjougahara from Bakemonogatari!!! CREEPY BUT COOL ANIME THAT WILL MAKE YOU SCARED OF STAPLERS!

I've been trying to sit near pretty asian boys....this one LEFT IN THE MIDDLE OF CLASS as I drew myself fawning over him....O_O Maybe he could sense it...

My scanner felt like being a loser and cutting out the fact that I'm holding a flower....<_< ANYWAYS, this is what happens in Left 4 Dead. OOOO LET'S GO EXPLORE....and then I'm ahead and everyone else gets massacred while I do nothing LOL i suck

The sewer level, in which we both did our own thing. Manda killed the witch all of a sudden without warning and I ran off and found the exit...XD

The entire time playing L4D my face was liek this ->>>> : D *creepy happy grin* LOL

the end

But I can take it...

Thu, 26 Nov 2009 03:59:47 GMT

If every day was the same
I would have died years ago
My calendar is marked
With blood red x's
For every twenty-four hours
I've suffered through

Eclipsed

Tue, 24 Nov 2009 05:56:35 GMT

When our lights meet,
Will you know me then?
And will you want to know it?
It feels like I've known you for so long

I think I can see right through myself

Sun, 22 Nov 2009 23:11:00 GMT

I'm becoming less defined as days go by
Fading away
And well you might say
Commencement was the most pointless thing ever, but I guess it was worth it for Albert's speech and taking photos of people dressed up nicely. DAMN some people really dressed up. I have a lot of homework, but I've been drawing and organizing stuff...Jenn is sick so I'm visiting her tomorrow. POOR JENN. I have no time to draw you a get well card LOL. SORRY. FORGIVE ME.

Tonight I have to watch a show called ORGASM INC on TV because my prof is making us watch it. Benson has to watch it too. HAHAHA poor Benson. We also are being forced to go see a presentation Monday night at 7 by Vic College. URRRGGHH. WHY SO MUCH EXTRA WORK, HUH? I have too much to do, why am I on LJ? T.T

I also have a lot of anime stuff to blog about, having finished Nabari no Ou, continuing Nyan Koi!, and starting Eve no Jikan and Bakemonogatari. Oh goodness...I even wrote a Nabari no Ou review on MyAnimeList....<_< derr..

Got to go do stuff now so I'll post sketches. HEY DO YOU LIKE MY NEW BACKGROUND?? I'm also about to put up a new profile insert thingy I made in like 3 minutes lol.

SKETCH TIME

NOTE: yet again, I was too lazy to resize everything so all of the sketches are huge.

Some dude.

Zebra smiling for once. Just practicing drawing his physique, he's pretty slim.

My character Zebra, tyring to be gangster.

...So Mint is trying to be gangster too XD I guess Minty fresh is a mini tribute to MFC?

Yukimi (WHO IS AWESOME) from Nabari no Ou and chibi Yoite. I so want that recipe for Hot lemonade...Seriously...

From left to right we have...Myself wearing whatever I had on that day....Tama and Josephine from Nyan Koi! (I LOVE JOSEPHINE. He's a male cat with a ribbon and a girl name who speaks in a Kansai accent. and he has a wife named Cindy. And his master is a girl in the Japanese mafia LOL). Then I drew Nekomimi Jenn, Amanda and Liviu. Amanda is SUPPOSED to be the one on top.

Fake confidence until you feel it. That's how I roll.

Commencement

Sun, 22 Nov 2009 05:01:13 GMT

The night is still young
She's got her miniskirt on
Hot damn, that girl's on fire

I'm your martyr

Tue, 17 Nov 2009 15:52:32 GMT

Well I don't look like they do,
And I don't love like they do,
But I don't hate like they do.
Am I ever on your mind?

I feel like you've known me so long

Fri, 13 Nov 2009 15:56:27 GMT

We love our tragedies.
We're both broken in our own little ways
We're broken, but we fit together just right
You know I saw the black inside your eyes

If I could just get past my pride

Sat, 07 Nov 2009 13:19:26 GMT

I'm just scared
Of losing control
I'm terrified of who
I'll become with you

I think in decimals and dollars

Thu, 05 Nov 2009 13:53:29 GMT

I am heaven sent
Don't. you. dare. forget this.

You be the barber, I'll make the pies

Wed, 04 Nov 2009 00:58:53 GMT

You want a piranha fountain, filled with acid-resistant pirahnas.
I want to ride a red dragon and have a garden full of venus fly traps.
We also want to star in Mythbusters.
And maybe live forever, or at least until we get bored.

I'm not sure what I'm looking for

Tue, 03 Nov 2009 02:58:26 GMT

You are a secret
A new possession
I like to keep you guessing

Kiss me blind, somebody should

Sun, 01 Nov 2009 23:37:33 GMT

A stroke of luck or a gift from God?
The hand of fate or devil's claws?
From below or saints above?
Would you guys like to know the story of Cerberus? Hehe

Just some random uni friends. In case I ever have to draw them in the future.

I like practicing drawing my hair XD curly hair is fun! Tried to draw my friend again but I always mess up his hair...I got fed up and gave him cat ears XDDD Oh, and there's the University versions of Feng and Russell. Feng uses contacts and Russell just got more..um...devious? o_o

LOL oh god, the topmost drawing is so AWKWARD. And I drew it in the middle of math and there was a girl beside me. She was probably going WTF. So I put my pink kitty eraser on Russell's head to cover it, but it looked worse XDDDDD AHAHAHA ok sorry, only I find these things funny. I drew Feng with a juice box. Dunno. AND PUPPYSHIPPING! Seto loves when Jou gets angry, he thinks it's cute. This ends arguments very very quickly.

Too lazy to edit this LOL. Basically it's me, random Nyankoi cats (Nyankoi is a good anime!) and the guy from Nyankoi...Sasori and Zetsu.

MORE FANART! Puchiko and Rabien Rose. Rabien is kind of slutty, but we love her anyways.

And keeping quiet is hard

Fri, 30 Oct 2009 03:58:45 GMT

And these are the words you wish you wrote down.
This is the way you wish your voice sounds,
Handsome and smart.
Oh my tongue's the only muscle in my body
That works harder than my heart.
And its all from watching TV,
And from speeding up my breathing.
Wouldn't stop if I could.
Oh it hurts to be this good.

It took so long to meet you

Thu, 29 Oct 2009 13:15:05 GMT

My heart was in the attic
Like the picture of Dorian Grey
I was rescued by the enemy
Who dare not speak his name

You might just turn into something I Like

Tue, 27 Oct 2009 01:09:00 GMT

I think I'll stay around to hear you breathe
Saying all those words to me
Unraveling my fantasy while I drink
My oleander tea

Be where I oughta be

Sun, 25 Oct 2009 23:33:44 GMT

Pick up the phone
And hear you saying
Dirty things to me